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Meagan--15--USA.
I am NOT pro-ana/mia and I do not support any type of eating disorder or self harm.
I am in love with Brand New, and plan on one day marrying Mr. Jesse Lacey. He just doesnt know it yet.

"So, this is my life. And I want you to know that I am both happy and sad and Im still trying to figure out how that could be."

Diagnosed with anorexia nervosa and EDNOS
Days without self harming- 0
Days without purging-0
Height- 5ft 4 in
CW- 105 lbs
GW- 90 lbs

"Smoke gunpowder and go to school to jump through hoops, sit up and beg, roll over on command. Listen to the whispers that curl into your head at night, calling you ugly and fat and stupid and bitch and whore and worst of all a disappointment. Puke and starve and cut and drink because you dont want to feel any of this. Puke and starve and cut and drink because you need an anesthetic and it works. For a while. But then the anesthetic turns into poison and by then its too late because youre mainlining it now, straight into your soul. It is rotting you and you cant stop."

I used to pray like god was listening
I used to make my parents proud
I was the glue that kept my friends together
Now they don’t talk and we don’t go out

tagged → #brand new #millstone